Friday, April 27, 2007
not over it yet
this was from chrystal's blog, 15th april. i've been meaning to blog about it but didn't find the time to. oh, and when she says 'win' or 'lose', she refers to a debate.
"syf is dangerous season. yes they put in perhaps more time than i have but i dare say i can equate my passion to theirs and at the end of the day, someone would have to win, and its not like the losing party doesn't gain anything at all! whatever happened to it's for the experience?! so what if you could have done better, so what if you lose or didn't meet expectation? SO WHAT?! i really don't see how others take it. i mean, i'll that typical sore loser who gets over it with time after i question myself why i even bother."
chrystal, please don't take this as an offence yeah. we always do this on bus rides home and now that i hardly go home with you anymore, i have no one to rebut. HAHA. just kidding :D
well anyway, this is directed at everyone. yes, i agree with lots of stuff said above, i am in no position to say that we wanted a good result for SYF anymore than DOS wants to win. sure, we gain vital experience, lots of it, especially by the many assembly performances when we had to report at 6.30 am to train ourselves to get used to the audience, to get used to judges. i believe experience is very important.
so what if we could have done better? well, how do you feel when you lost say, 10 marks in an exam through careless mistakes, when you just need that 10 more marks to pass? mind you,
careless mistakes. surely you would learn from your mistakes, but of course you'd feel angry and disappointed. you could have passed, but didn't, JUST because of a few trivial reasons. you work so hard studying and you could have at least passed it, but because of those silly mistakes, your passing grade just slipped out of your hands.
so what if we lose? well, what if this 'exam' determines your next school? like the o levels. THIS if what if we lose. we have lost a band room we never had. you must understand the importance of a band room. it's not about convenience, it's about getting the right sound, about IMPROVING. right now, we have lost whatever chances we had of getting a band room, the school doesn't trust us anymore. they are asking "what if we get you a band room and you don't improve?" we would then have to wait for the next SYF to prove ourselves, which we ATTEMPTED to do this year. moreover, SYF comes once in two years, unlike any normal exam which comes in like, three times a year. we have waited two years for SYF, working hard and probably even trying to make our seniors, the school, everyone, proud of us. do we have to wait yet another two more years for such an opportunity to come again?
but what i really think is that the real thing that causes people to break down and cry is disappointment. when we got a silver in Hawaii, what we thought was that we have already secured AT LEAST a silver in Singapore, all we had to do was play at least the same standard as we did in Hawaii. whenever people have high expectations of themselves, and find that the result was the total opposite, it comes as a much heavier blow as compared to when the person expects much less. i'm not saying that the DOS girls expected to lose. i'm not at all. but i mean, the silver or gold meant a lot to us, even more so to the school. it meant respect, it meant a band room, it meant AUSTRALIA. to an o level candidate, it would mean her future. so that is so what.
yes, i'm done. and this post was not meant to stir up any feelings, if you disagree with anything i've said, go ahead and tell me, especially chrystal. and i'm also sorry for the lame analogies, like exams, i think i'm really in the exam mood now, and i've banned myself from the computer. i just let myself write this post cus i think it might help my argumentitive essays, which i sooo totally can't do. one sided-ness? yes, very much. alright then, all the best for your exams people, you better have had started studying. *cough*GEN*cough*
GONE SHOPPING, 4/27/2007 07:52:00 pm
