Thursday, May 24, 2007
malcolm
macbeth was okayy. as expected, i didn't understand a word they were saying. ok, maybe just a bit, like "out, spot! out i say!" and "i have been killed, mum". haha, those were hilarious. but i somewhat understood the plot from their expressions and actions la, so it wasn't too bad. there was also this dude who played malcolm in the play, he was so totally cute and everyone was falling in love with him, but ah wells, we saw him later upclose when he has changed out of his costume and was flaging a cab. he was fat and ugly. indeed, the stage does wonders for people.
on the bus home, i was alone and i started thinking about report card tomorrow. i know, i don't want to rant or complain, but i just couldn't help feel a sense of hopelessness. i know you are probably fed up of reading this in everyone's blogs nowadays, but just listen to me first. kay, like i've been really trying to accept my results and i keep avoiding to admit that i'm totally disappointed in myself, but i really am. i reallyreallyreally am. and i just cannot accept them because i actually
studied. i put in loads of hard work and effort and i studied for hours on end, and i simply don't know why my results are like that. so i feel totally helpless cus i don't know what went wrong. then i realised that this is the same feeling when we got a bronze for SYF, having put in so much effort and still not reaping results. except that this time round, there won't be comments from any judges to tell us our wrongs. beybey can't possibly tell me my wrongs, how would she know? how would anyone know? HOPELESS.
then i remembered something from some blog i read,
"there is no limiting factor of hard work". then it dawned on me, WHAT ON EARTH AM I TALKING ABOUT? i am sooo NOT a giver upper, i'm just gonna have to try harder. if i still fail, i'll try yet EVEN harder. i'll just keep trying harder and harder until i die of exhaustion, hahahahaha. i'll be very focused all the way till o levels, there's only about 5 more months to the Os. we've been schooling for like what, almost 10 years of our lives and in these 5 months, we can either choose to play a fool or work really hard. if we play a fool and not do well in our Os, ten years of schooling would go down the drain and we'll just end up in some rubbish course in some rubbish poly. ten years, mind you, TEN YEARS! are you willing to just let ten years of homework, sweat and blood just slip out of your fingers because you've been playing a fool during these five months? hell no, what's more is that after our Os, we can just play as much as we want during that longlong break we have. so wouldn't it be much more worth it if we just push for 5 more months and put 10 years of schooling to good use?
i think lim muimui should get a job as a motivational speaker instead, she was the one would talked to us about there being only 5 more months and how we could throw 10 years of schooling away if we play a fool. and she also said that she wouldn't be able to bear to see us go somewhere rubbishy cus she knows us (sort of) personally and that we're actually really good girls and it's been a pleasure for her to teach us. i thought that was pretty sweet of her, haha. but she also said that although she would feel sorry for us, she wouldn't be able to give us anything more to help us go somewhere, and that emphathy was all she could offer, so we might as well just work hard.
i hoped that kinda motivated everyone to work hard, although things arn't actually all hunky dory on this end of the line, but hey, we're all in this together and we can do it if we set our minds to.
oh, today, after school, i was really shocked and touched by some of my sec ones. three of them came looking for me in class and they gave me presents, saying that since it was my last year in the school and stuff. i was shocked cus they were sec ones, most of whom don't give a damn about sec 4s and wouldn't even notice the difference when they're out of school. (haha, i''m speaking from experience ok) so yeah, i love them supersuper a lot and i'm really proud to be their senior, hehhehhehhehhehhehheh. so cheeeeeesyyyyyyyyyyy.
GONE SHOPPING, 5/24/2007 11:47:00 pm
